Today I won't be talking about pathophysiology, drug interactions and any other forms of medical related topics.
I may not call you the apple of my eye, my one and only, my focal point neither my epinephine nor my breathing device but you are my most potent vasoconstrictor not because you raises my blood pressure and causes me too have a slow heartbeat, I just feel like calling you my most potent vasoconstrictor who happens to stop me from losing too much and restore what I have already lose.
You are different because you don't make my heart beat faster but I just know that you make it beat in congruence to yours
You weren't the one who makes me breath difficultly and cause bronchoconstriction but you were someone who happens to restore oxygen and makes me feel like I'm freely breathing and everything else matters.
When you're around, everything doesn't happen to be in a slow phase but you were someone who makes me look forward into the future and face tomorrow
You weren't the one who makes me feel nervous but you were the one who makes me feel alive , makes me feel the feeling of being outrageously elated
You weren't the one in my dreams because you were the one that I am planning to spend my reality with
You may be clueless of everything that I am talking about but everytime that I got the chance to talk and be with you, I just know that I am on my safe shore, my comfort zone, my hideaway place and I'm definitely on my most sincere form.
You've been around even before I certainly notice you and I just want you to know that though we're inches or distance apart, you will always be someone that I am concerned of and will always be....
MY MOST POTENT VASOCONSTRICTOR
Yours truly,
the one who had given you the mask when you badly needed it
Just so you know and for the information of many specially to those who happens to be part of a big radius of my everyday living,
1.) I'm a good person but not the kindest kind of a person that you'll meet.
2.) I learned to have patience but don't dare push it to the limit because I'm not going to extend it further.
3.) When I said my sorry, "I SAID MY SORRY" I mean it and it came from the sincerest part of my being and period that's the end of it. Don't expect me to say it a million times, do something special just for you to accept my apology. If you can't accept my sincerest apology. OK FINE! I said it once, put down my pride once and that's it.
4.) When you're my friend, I consider you more of like a sister/brother and if there's any information that I know would benefit you or there are ways I know that would lift you higher , I won't mind making an extra effort just for you. I'm not expecting you to do the same but I'm hoping for a friendship that is not self-centered.
5.) I'm a kind of person who supports you with all your decisions and at the same time stays with you when you're decisions weren't good enough. I'm walking the extra mile, doing the extra effort, worries like a mother when you are not feeling well even when you won't barely notice it. I'm willing to do you a favor as long as it is attainable even if you won't ask, I definitely will because you are a part of me and that's the most sincere part of being me. I love people more than I love myself.
6.) You know, how it hurts to wait for something that is unpredictable, so if you happen to be informed about certain things that you know your friends has been waiting for a long time, it won't cause you a dime or a penny to tell the information, I'm not expecting you to support me or lift me higher but I'm expecting you to be concern just for a single moment because you're not only a friend to me but I consider you more like a sibling.
7.) At times when I'm hurt by your certain actions, I just need to walk out or go away because I might burst and say a lot of words that would definitely stab you so I'd rather go away and hope that the next day I won't be that mad.
8.) When I knew that you have done something wrong, I won't be telling it to you because I want you to realize your own mistake but if you're going to continue with that pretend play, don't expect me to give you the same treatment and friendship that I have given you from the start.
9.) You are mad when people don't inform you about something that you deserve to know or tell lies right in front of your face. I mean everybody gets mad with that kind of attitude, so I expect you not to do the same thing.
Remember the golden rule "Do not do to others what you don't want to do unto you". Lying is different from hiding something that you deserve to know ( if you are hiding something because of privacy reasons, it is acceptable and definitely not part of what I'm talking about) yet it has the same weight of hurting people especially your friends.
10.) Though you have done something wrong, I would still give you information that you deserve to know because I'm not the selfish kind of person and I'm expecting you to at least say "THANK YOU!" and not ignore me ("SEENZONED") . Just a little courtesy please!
11.) I forgive even when you don't say your sorry but again don't push me to the limit. When I'm starting to move on with all your wrong doings I'm doing the best I can not to be a bitch type of person for you so please stop being immature.
12.) When you plan, consider the risk benefit ratio not only for yourself but for the sake of many. don't be too damn self centered.
13.) When being asked, kindly reply. straightforwardly reply, not three days late or a week late "all kinds of conversation deserves a reply may it be verbally or non verbally, online, through phone or personal, all kinds of messages deserve a damn reply!" that's what I learned from college. Just so you know, it's part of being courteous!
14.) Don't expect people to be online 24/7, so if you have something important to say please mind to do an extra effort to send a text message or give a phone call or inform ahead of time.
15.) Please know the definition of miscommunication--- it is not a one sided mistake, you're a part of it.
16.) When a particular time was set, I'm expecting you to be on time... 15-30 minutes late would do but more than that, its a little too much,, my time isn't yours to waste, you should have informed me the exact time that you planned to be there.
17.) You should at least try putting yourself in one's shoe before concluding.
18.) I reply/answer when you ask something regardless of all the issues because that is being courteous but don't expect me to initiate a conversation when you have done something wrong because I was hurt and I don't have plans to handle a pretend play.
19.) When you have something to say, say it right then instead of ignoring people who were trying to reach out. Ranting somewhere instead of replying won't make you feel better.
20.) When I'm trying to reach out, don't ignore it because it took me a lot of courage to do it and a lot of effort to dropped everything and I am very certain that it would only be once, it won't happen for a second or third time.
21.) If you are aware that you are going to meet someone, you should confirm your presence a day or two hours before the scheduled time not 30 minutes or more than an hour after the scheduled time, that's also part of respect and being courteous.
22.) I'm a person raised with pride and firm belief and I won't dare put it six feet not even two feet below the ground. When I dropped my pride once that's it, don't expect me to kneel down and kiss your toes. I have my personal limits too.
So this is the first ever book that I managed to finish in just a matter of three days. I'm really not into reading books but i'm planning to read more often this year and I was really fascinated with this novel which is more of a young adult kind of reading.
Moreover, as I go through the story line, I came to realize that it tackles not only the usual romance thing that most teenagers experience but the story also includes family ties and family relationship which indeed important and the occurrence is very natural, it is undeniable that people nowadays fall in love not only once but they happen to meet and fall with a couple of wrong persons before finding the right one.
And of course! I cannot forget Peter Kavinsky!
At first I was able to admire Josh but I just fell in love with the character of Peter Kavinsky.
I was thinking that he must be having a secret feeling towards Lara Jean even before he received the letter, by the way speaking of letter, isn't it strange to find out that all the guys you've loved before just received your love letter and have known your thoughts and feelings towards them in an instant?
If that would happen to me I might burst into madness and just let myself be drown in a pool.
Anyway, If you are looking for a good read... I highly suggest this novel by Jenny Han
and here are some of the remarkable quotes I have encountered while reading:
We often wish and pray for the wrong person, spent so much time and exerted too much effort just to win someone right?
We are too busy with the wrong person and that makes us too late to realize that we have overlooked the right one.
Anyway, it is wonderful at the same time strange to just stop wishing for that person because you have finally realized that you are better off to be with someone who loves you more than anybody else in the world. Very ideal that I don't even know that this kind of thing really do exist.
I just don't need to expand the quote above but I just know that it is definitely everybody's dream.
So, this talks more about the one sided love affair and the friend zoned feeling. You're alone in a one sided relationship string. You'll be able to find out more about this while reading the story.
If it would be easy as 1-2-3, I would definitely have done that many times before but it is not that easy, it would really take time to forget the little things, the refined details and the magical feeling, it will take a matter of moving on process to heal the broken heart and just feel plain nothing.
Bottomline is I just love the novel and of course PETER KAVINSKY!
I’m
not the OC or the Obsessive Compulsive type of person but I’m more of the
detailed and refined type of individual.
It was not my thing planning and scheduling dates, it’s just
now that I feel like doing it not because it’s just now that I finally got
plans for the whole year round but because I just can’t handle the hectic
schedule and what graduate school and healthcare profession demands me to do.
Some may think that I maybe lax and others think that I’m
busy, well to cut it short I’m one of the busiest busy bee in town trying to
break grounds in healthcare profession.
So what’s in store for me this 2015? I basically don’t know
but I started it with a lot of mandatory demands and a big goal. Definitely a
big goal to target and to finally win what I’m aiming for since the near end of
2013.
And if you’re one of the refined and busy bee type of person
like me might as well purchase a planner,it’s definitely good to be on track and monitor what you have done and
be reminded with the things that you still have to do right?
I just felt like needing it because I might go crazy
thinking almost every minute the things that need to be done when in fact I
just can jot it down and achieve it one day at a time.
By
the way, I bought mine at National Bookstore. Moreover, Papemelroti offer planners with a cheaper price yet if you want to jump into the bandwagon, you
can collect stickers and aim to get the SB planner. It’s your choice, what’s
important is that you’ll be able to have something to help you get through the
busy 2015 one step at a time.
If you guys would ask me "What would be the sound track of your lovelife?"
I would probably sing Emma Bunton's Take my breath away. it was released on 27 August 2001 in the United Kingdom as the second single from Bunton's debut solo album.
Everytime that I get to see my crush, it feels like this song is playing on background, just like what we use to see in movies and chick flicks. hahaha!
Anyway, this song really has a very nice lyrics and rhythm and I could really relate with what the singer and writer is trying to say.
The lyrics goes like this:
"If I told you how I feel about you would you say the same?
If I wrote it in a letter, would you keep it or throw it away?"
same question running through my mind everytime he's around. It is undeniable that a lot of people get rejected once they confess feelings with the person they love right?
people weren't afraid of saying what they feel but they are more afraid of the reaction or response or maybe there will really be no response at all and the person you love will just walk away and won't show up to you again.
But who knows, he might thinking of the same question whenever you're around and feeling the same feeling. :)
"I'd never thought that I'd feel the way I'm feeling lately when everything you seem to do just drives me crazy"
There's this guy specifically a nurse whom I was able to be with lately at a dialysis center, he was basically not new to me because he was my schoolmate way back college and I have met him during that time. He was very familiar aside from the fact that he is good looking, I would never forget the time he asked for a mask because he badly needs it for a duty in an operating room in a particular hospital at Valenzuela. He was not my type actually but when I finally got the chance to know him, he was really something and it didn't came into my mind that I could possibly like him. :) <3 <3 <3
I was one of those introvert kind of individuals during college so I didn't expect him to remember me during that time that I was taking my training at a dialysis center but fortunately he was able to realize that I'm familiar and that we came from the same school. Isn't it a good sign?
Anyway, going for training everyday became really exciting aside from meeting those kind and jolly patients and learning new things and gaining experience, I always look forward into seeing him even if I'm inches away.
The feeling of being happy and elated and being on a reverie whenever he's around is a kind of feeling that I never imagined to happen. The way he walks, the way he brushes his hair up, the way he wears his glasses, his gestures, the way he talks, the way he smiles and everything in between just makes my heart skip a beat.
In medical term I always tend to feel these when he's around: TACHYCARDIA, DYSPNEA, BRONCHO CONSTRICTION, PREMATURE VENTRICULAR CONTRACTION
sounds like I'm ill right? but No, I think I'm just starting to become more human and feeling the universal feeling of being alive, that I don't know but I definitely love the feeling that I am experiencing whenever he's around.
"Every waking day, you take my breath away, with every word you say, you take my breath away"
Whenever I get the chance to be his partner, I really don't know what to say because he definitely has a lot of things to say, a lot of questions to ask and a lot of stories to tell, so basically I could just listen and control the undefined elated feelings.
We talk about anything under the sun, his goals, the things he like and even the most potent vasoconstrictor, the division of cells, types of dialyzers, the gauge and flow rate of needles but at the end of each I just find myself breathless and just got my eyes nailed on him.
Remembering those times when he asked me about the perfume that I used, where do I live, what are my plans after the training, my ideal guy and why I didn't even have a boyfriend: I have prepared answers for those questions but wasn't able to answer because I was nervous, I'm lost for words and my heart keeps on beating faster than the usual that I just lose track on what am I going to say.
"You look at me that way, baby come what may.
I hope that you'll always know how to take my breath away"
He was this kind of person that looks deep into your eyes and starts to say something and even if he's distance away, I just can't help but to look at him but everytime his eyes meet mine, I just can't help but to keep on wishing that hopefully he feels the same way.
"I don't know the way you feel but boy I'm hoping. I always used to hide away, but now I'm open"
I was the type of person, who refuses to come closer, the one who goes away, stares at him from a distance but if only he knew that he was running on my mind in every spaces between seconds.
Every waking day you take my breath away
with every word you say you take my breath away
you look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you'll always know how to take my breath away
